Monday, July 12, 2010

Life

It can be so complicated sometimes, can't it? Often the complications are brought on by our own stupidity. Sometimes, they are a result of things we have no control over, like diseases and illnesses. I have tried for years now to overcome my constant depression, mood swings, irritability, insecurities, feelings of inadequecy, abandonment...
I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist last year as having bilpolar II. Something about that just has never sat quite right with me. Much of the diagnosis made sense, but much did not. Now, I finally know why: it would appear I have something else, something related but more psychological and less physical. I am seeing another therapist soon, and I am pretty sure I will come back with a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. Having gone over all the diagnostic criterion, this fits me like a glove. The good news is, it's treatable with talk therapy, and it can be overcome. One less thing to take meds for! Hooray! *sigh* At least there is hope of getting rid of ONE of my many ailments. Right?